Last Saturday

The Middle Child started her happily-ever -after.  She married her sweetie.  What a beautiful bride she was, gorgeous and serene, radiating happiness!  I’m so honored to have been invited to share in this special event in her life.

They are so cute together.  And well-matched.  When they went off to have their photos taken at a nearby park, Mr. MC was sweet and attentive, helping his bride into the car, making sure the dress was settled as well as Mrs. MC before closing the door securely behind her.  Later, Hubby was making a speech and became a tad emotional.  The Middle Child stood up, embraced him and very elegantly took over thanking all of us for joining them in celebrating their marriage.

Neeley and the Little One were bridesmaids so I got to hang out with them and their men too.  It was a wonderful evening!  I’m so proud of my girls and the women they have grown into.  Each is a unique and incredible individual. 

My girls, their men and the mom and dad who have so generously shared them.

Thank you, ladies for letting me be a part of your lives.  I look forward to seeing where you go next.  Knowing you as I do, I’m sure it will be far.  I love you.

A Humpty Dumpty Day

Ever have one of those days when you just feel irreparably broken? With the amount of turmoil I've endured the last year it's surprising I don't feel this way all the time. In an eggshell, I was reorganized out of a company I'd worked at for almost 23 years - a good thing as it turns out. I extracted myself from a very bad 15 year relationship - a good thing in numerous ways but with so many scars. I've heard he's now out on bail awaiting a court hearing for stealing from the place he worked. Does that mean I shouldn't take it personally that he stole from me since he was stealing elsewhere too? I became a published author - a good yet surreal thing. I got a new job that is so totally different it's as if I fall down the rabbit hole over and over again - a good thing.

So with all the good turmoil, why am I so broken and what set me off this time? The broken part is easy. Everything that came before the major changes took a severe toll on me. What set me off is also easy. I once again trusted the wrong individual. Will I never learn? Yes, perhaps this time I have. Perhaps this time I'll finally accept that I'm not meant to share all I am. A terrible shame that as I'm one hell of a woman once you get past my defenses. Of course it's very unlikely that anyone will ever manage to do that ever again.

Interesting that I choose to write erotic romances, isn't it? Oh I have plenty of ideas for other things too. It's just not time for them yet. I'll get to it. Now I know what you're thinking...those that can do, those that can't write. Wrong! I'm speaking for me only here. In the last year I've met many fellow authors living their own happily-ever-afters. And I love that for them. It's just not for me and high time I stop trying to force something that's not meant to be.

Yes, I'm broken today. But I have a secret weapon that all the king's horses and all the king's men didn't. Cats. Cats with incredible restorative powers. They purr and nudge their furry little faces against mine and it's impossible to stay down for very long. So today I'm Humpty Dumpty. Tomorrow who knows? I may just wake up feeling like Ariel experiencing all the wonders of dry land on her own two feet the first time.