Sunday, December 13, 2009

I Don't Get It

The whole Christmas thing that is. Surprising really, considering I grew up average middle class in a two parent household.

I was talking to a friend the other day. Circumstances caused him to lose his Christmases. I wanted to be empathetic and I was but only to a certain extent. Can’t really identify with something I’ve never had. It made it very difficult to understand what he’s going through and that made me sad.

I watch all those sappy holiday movies with morbid fascination, trying to absorb what the fuss is about but that really doesn’t work. You wouldn’t believe how foreign they are to me. I’ve often wondered if there might be someone who could explain it all, help me understand but I think I need to ask questions and I have no idea where to start.

Usually I go into hiding this time of year so I can ignore the whole thing. I can feel myself slipping into invisibility as I write this. I should want to stop that but honestly, I don’t. Not sure why exactly but it hurts too much to stay “out there” and for some reason this year feels worse than others.

Just wanted to let you know since I’m likely to be scarce for a bit. I’m okay and I’ll be back for real after it’s all over. Have a happy holiday season, whatever that may be.


Regina Carlysle said...

Don't go too far in your hiding.
In the meantime, you've been tagged. Maybe this will put a smile on your face. Check out the questions at

Anny Cook said...

Christmas for me was centered in the celebration of the birth of Christ. What I don't get is all the commercial stuff...all the presents...all the me,me,me...

If you are not a religious person, then Christmas and Easter (which are both primarily religious based holidays) probably won't have much meaning for you, just as Hanukkah, Ramadan, or any other religious holiday might not have meaning for you.

If you also belong to a family with limited traditions for such holidays, then of course they have little meaning for you. I wish things were different for you because I would see you happy.