Monday, January 4, 2010

Another Year Gone


2009 has come and gone and now it’s time to do some reflecting. I can’t say it was particularly good or bad though I did experience some of both. It averaged out to being just another year. Kind of sad, that.

What does 2010 hold? Not a clue but I’m okay with that. I have an overall plan for my life and hopefully keep things moving in that general direction but other than that I don’t usually dwell on the minor details of things. Not when it comes to me anyway. I used to but then I was always bogged down by the little things and occasionally lost track of the big picture. A very frustrating way to exist so I quit.

I learned to let go of things but I’m beginning to wonder if I may have overdone that one. In the past year I’ve come very, very close to literally letting go of everything and just wandering off without looking back. That probably wouldn’t be the way to do it but you must admit it could turn into one hell of an adventure.

Yes, I definitely need more adventures. 2009 held some minor ones but not nearly enough. I’m working towards more in 2010. Nope, can’t say specifically what I have in mind. As I see it there are some things the whole world really doesn’t need to know.

Hmm, what else about last year? I tried to help as I could and not to hurt anyone in the process. I think I did kind of okay with that although there are always other ways to help so maybe not. I spent a lot of days not liking me much but that’s nothing new. Yes, I’m working on it. There are people I trust who do like me so I suspect my judgment is a little skewed and I’m not really quite as bad as I think I am most of the time. Have to wait and see how that turns out.

Family stuff? Best not to get into that. Work stuff? Well I go every day and try to do my job as best I can. As always though, I believe work should pay for your life, not become your life. Writing? Hmm. Yeah. It’s been scary quiet inside my head lately. Not sure why or what to do about it. Really hoping it doesn’t last because I miss hearing the chaotic chatter that usually rolls around in my mind.

I don’t do resolutions. Never have. Why wait for a certain date to make a change in your life? I live more by the Nike philosophy myself – just do it. What about you?

3 comments:

Ashley Ladd said...

Happy New Year. I hope your 2010 will be more memorable than 2009.

It's too scary quiet in my head right now, too. I'm trying to come up with a cat shifter story but no luck so far.

Regina Carlysle said...

I predict more adventures for you this year. Sometimes we just put too much pressure on ourselves. We're harder on ourselves than anyone else will be. Just GO with things and let them happen. Adventure will follow.

Anny Cook said...

Happy New Year. I find you a charming off-beat woman. I've enjoyed knowing you over the last couple years.

May your new year be as noisy as you wish in that head of yours. I went through a quiet spell last year. It's getting better!