What Did I Do?

Mangled memories and twisted truths
Altered to make life bearable
History rewritten to avert insanity
Yet I remember still
Deep inside reality lurks
The knowledge that I was never wanted
And once here, never chosen
Left to fend for myself
Not caring if I thrived
Not caring if I even survived
No attention paid
No notice given
Heart so cold no love extended
Overlooked at every turn
Abandoned without a thought
Left behind – a gouged out shell of confused sadness