Tuesday, July 22, 2008

Inevitable?



Premonition: anticipation of an event without conscious reason

Déjà vu: the illusion of remembering scenes and events when experienced for the first time

Instinct: behavior that is mediated by reactions below the conscious level

Hunch: a strong intuitive feeling concerning a future event or result

Coincidence: the occurrence of events that happen at the same time by accident but seem to have some connection

Hooey: nonsense

We all have those instances in our lives when there is a moment that we just knew something was going to happen. How much stock do you put into it? Do you let whatever you call the feeling of something looming on the horizon influence your actions? Or do you stick to dealing with what is right in front of you and let the future come as it may? Really, unless you’re psychic, you don’t even know what to prepare for, right?

I bring this up because yesterday I was sitting at work, minding my own business, doing what I do all day and was suddenly overwhelmed by a feeling of being, oh I don’t know, swamped maybe. Pressed down by something big? Engulfed? Doused with pudding? Yes, perhaps that’s an adequate description. Slimed with pudding upon opening a new door and as yet unable to clear it from my eyes to see what I’ve just walked into.

The thing about this is, and I can’t decide whether or not to be concerned, is that nothing has really changed. Not that I know of anyway. Perhaps it will become evident over time. Perhaps not. Maybe it’s simply a case of a migraine that’s lasted far too long and an excessive amount of medication used to combat that. I can’t even determine what portion of my life it’s related to. Maybe a sudden wind storm will spring up and deposit the winning lottery ticket in my pocket and tomorrow I’ll have $64 million. Maybe I’m about to encounter a new set of amazing and highly entertaining characters to write about. Maybe I’m going to get hit by a bus. Maybe what’s left of my mind is finally gone and I haven’t realized it yet. I just don’t know.

What I do know is that this is a new feeling for me. Oh, I’ve had the slightly psychic, espish notions as we all have on occasion but this is entirely different, stronger, more urgent. I feel like I’m about to embark on an unknown journey, an adventure if you will. And I have no control. Wait, I don’t mean I feel out of control. I know I can choose to accept or not. Or at least I think I can. It’s more of a somehow I know I’m just supposed to hang on, go with it and then figure it all out once I see where I end up type of thing.

Ever have this feeling? How did it turn out for you? Did you have the courage to let go completely and just let whatever was supposed to happen happen or did something kick in and cause you to try to determine the outcome? I wonder what I’ll do when the time comes. We’ll have to wait and see for that one but I’m willing to bet it’s going to be one hell of a ride! Stay tuned…

Tour de France Update -
Winner Stage 16, July 22 - Dessel, France
Overall Leader - Frank Schleck, Luxemburg
Cadel Evans still in 3rd by 8 seconds

5 comments:

Ray said...

I never worry about premonitions. Either they will happen or they won't. I have a lot that come true, good and bad. I never plan my day around them though.

Ray

Amarinda Jones said...
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Amarinda Jones said...

I am a great believer in coincidence and following feelings, signs and hunches as there has always been a reason behind them. But for you - you're just run down kid - blinde Freddie could tell you that. Go out and do something for you

Molly Daniels said...

How many days left in the Tour? Go Cadel...pedal your heart out!

Kelly Kirch said...

Yep, I've had that one. It's coupled with a wobbly tummied sense of anticipation or anxiety. It's never good when I get those.

When I have extended Deja Vu moments (not sure it qualifies as premonition) I NEVER act or respond in the way I foresee, just to throw it off. The weird thing is, that the events or things happening rarely change as a result.

I remember one time where I proved it to my DH. He was watching a game on TV and I said, "Your mom is about to walk in the room, she's going to do this, say that, and I'm supposed to say xyz. She will answer, abc." When she did two seconds later, I changed what I said but she still answered abc (even though it no longer made sense) then looked confused like she wondered why I had left the script. LOL> I have fun with those things.