Wednesday, January 28, 2009


I’m in a mood. I even brought it on myself this time. I figured it was better to trigger it than to let it sneak up on me. So I read something that I knew would get to me. It worked. A little too well perhaps.

Well enough that I’m now questioning everything again. Mm, been a long time since I’ve done that. For example, do you know anyone who’s honestly happy? Long-term I mean, not fleeting moments of joy. Happy as in is thoroughly pleased with everything in their life, wouldn’t change a thing, all their dreams have already come true. Nope, me either. I can’t even come up with anyone who’s moderately content most of the time at the moment. Content as in no true worries, like could they afford to live through the next week if something major goes wrong.

And when it comes right down to it, does it really matter anyway? In the overall scheme of the universe, that is. No, it honestly doesn’t. Seriously. not much of anything does. There will always be individuals better or worse off than you are and the only person your troubles make any difference to is you. Just like only I care about what’s going on with me. After all, that’s life. Take it or leave it.

Hey, I warned you.


Taylor Tryst said...


I think we all feel that way sometimes. The worst funks make one want to shrivel up and hide away. There have been times I haven't wanted to talk to a single soul, including my family. But, it's your loved one's who usually force you back into the real world and in the end, help you through those tough times. Your friends, too!

Regina Carlysle said...

Life is full of ups and downs. It makes like interesting but you have to learn to roll with the goods and bads. It's how we survive.

Amarinda Jones said...

You are absoluetly right - no one I know can claim to be happy. I do not believe happiness exists. I believe we endure because we hope for soemthing better and keep moving on when we don't get it. I think that's a realistic way to live

Sandra Cox said...

'There will always be people better off and worse than we are'. Very true. I get disgusted with myself when I get on a self-pity jag knowing what some of my friends are going through right now. Of course, being disgusted doesn't necessarily stop me from feeling sorry for myself:)

Anny Cook said...

We have good days. We have bad days. And we have those mostly is-that-all-there-is days. The secret is to enjoy the good days, endure the bad days, and ignore the rest--I think.

I hope you feel better tomorrow, B.

Molly Daniels said...

Love you Barb! Sending many hugs.

Ditto to everyone above.

This should cheer you up: WV is 'Ooooh, lookyd!' (oolookyd)

Remember being seven? "Oooh lookyd this! Watch me Mommy!"